So it seems that on May 2, 2006 I hit publish on the first post here on By Singing Light. It was a poem, which I find a tad embarrassing these days (not the sentiments so much as the execution), so I won’t link to it.
It’s hard to believe that I’ve been writing in this space for ten years. I’m not sure I’ve done anything else so consistently for so long. I was eighteen at the time, and moving to Oregon, and I think this was a way of reaching out.
The fact that ten years of my reading life and reactions are documented here is a funny feeling. My opinions and biases about so many things have changed so much over the time I’ve been writing here, to the extent that I sometimes feel like I should go back and put a disclaimer on my old reviews. But there’s also a wry acceptance of who I was.
I’m so grateful for everyone who reads here. (And I’m sorry about how bad I am at responding to comments.) I have a tiny readership, and there have been times when that’s been hard to deal with. I’ve mostly made my peace with it, and that’s largely due to the fact that those of you who do read are so awesome.
Despite all the pressures of everyday life, of internal and external anxieties and woes, of unsureness and insecurities, I keep coming back here. Having a place to write about reading, to write about books, to connect with other readers in whatever large or small way is something that I find hugely valuable. It’s hard at this point to imagine a reading life that’s not informed by other bloggers.
I suspect things will keep shifting, though. I’m planning to try writing short essays about reading, as well as reviews, and link posts, and booklists. I’m going to keep doing Reading Notes series as I can. I’m going to keep putting my voice out there. Every time I’ve thought about quitting–and there have certainly been times when it’s seemed easier to just step away–something stops me. Something about what I find here is different from any other online place I’m part of.
So I suppose this is me saying: I’m here. I hope you’ll stick around too.